Challenge me or lose me
Saturday, October 4, 2014
Sunday, May 11, 2014
It's May 11. For at least two weeks now it has been between 70-80 plus degrees. I ordered a tree to plant, one that I have bought twice before and it coincidently has not made it. But dang it.....third times the charm. It (the third tree) is currently in my kitchen wrapped in plastic garbage bags in a barrel of water and organic soil to maintain humidity and water until the weather decides to change. Oh we'll say maybe two days, it's Denver who knows?. I want this tree to survive, I'll try again to nuture and help it grow.
Maybe this first paragraph is the metaphor for my relationships..or lack thereof.... or what I actually want to find within a marriage, which is kind of weird because I want things to be for-sure when I take that step, but three times to try and nurture something(in this case the tree) is no match to the amount of times I would try to fight for my forever mate. Ebbs and flows. I know what I want. I just need to remember the person that my mom and dad molded me to be.
I am very much my own woman, I have been told I am intimidating...by both men and women(that are co-workers etc.) Why can't I find the man whom looks at me and tells me that...sure I might be intimidating, but(in his words) " I welcome that, as a challenge that I whole-heartedly accept. "Let us dive into the depths of joy, sorrow, and unimaginably deep respect, love and knowledge of one another. Challenge me, question me, need me, want me, love me, respect me, know me!
I really do not think this is too much, I will not give up. I welcome you to find me, challenge me, explore the depths of our faith and for our faith in the Lord to grow within ourselves and together. I invite you, my love to find me, explore, and question.. everything, this is my wish to find you, my love find me darling. This is my want, my need, explore life with me, come, my friend, my love, this is my plea to find me and you, together, forever.
So apparently, this has turned into a poem....
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Maybe this first paragraph is the metaphor for my relationships..or lack thereof.... or what I actually want to find within a marriage, which is kind of weird because I want things to be for-sure when I take that step, but three times to try and nurture something(in this case the tree) is no match to the amount of times I would try to fight for my forever mate. Ebbs and flows. I know what I want. I just need to remember the person that my mom and dad molded me to be.
I am very much my own woman, I have been told I am intimidating...by both men and women(that are co-workers etc.) Why can't I find the man whom looks at me and tells me that...sure I might be intimidating, but(in his words) " I welcome that, as a challenge that I whole-heartedly accept. "Let us dive into the depths of joy, sorrow, and unimaginably deep respect, love and knowledge of one another. Challenge me, question me, need me, want me, love me, respect me, know me!
I really do not think this is too much, I will not give up. I welcome you to find me, challenge me, explore the depths of our faith and for our faith in the Lord to grow within ourselves and together. I invite you, my love to find me, explore, and question.. everything, this is my wish to find you, my love find me darling. This is my want, my need, explore life with me, come, my friend, my love, this is my plea to find me and you, together, forever.
So apparently, this has turned into a poem....
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